Sunday, November 29, 2015

Somewhere Only We Know

"Apa yang bestnya tempat ni? It's just another ordinary beach."

"It's a special place for me. I selalu datang sini."

"Kenapa you selalu datang sini? Ambil angin?"

"Entah. I rasa I perlu datang sini. Sini tenang. Takde orang. Just me and this. All of this. You tak rasa cantik ke?"

 "Me? I memang rasa I cantik. Eh, I memang cantik pun."

We both laughed at her joke. Yes, she liked to perasan a lot.

"No, I mean you tak rasa apa yang depan you ni cantik ke? Pemandangan ni?"

"Hmm, let me think first."

She scanned the horizon like she never did. I didn't have any idea what she was looking for. Perhaps she was paying attention to the fishing boats from afar amidst the greenish-blue Tenggol. Or perhaps to the long stretch of golden sandy beach lined by tall casuarinas alongside it.

"So what do you think?" I asked her, fishing for her answer.

"I think we should go home. Dah dekat pukul 7."

"Yes. Jom."

We then headed to the car and just before I started putting into the first gear, while grinning broadly, she said something I didn't expect to come out from her this evening. Satisfied, I replied her with a smile, feeling spirited and approved.

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Sleep start. Hypnic jerk.

Not the best thing in the world. Mengganggu tidur. Baru nak lena tiba-tiba tersentak dan terus terjaga. It happens too many times to me. Almost every sleep. What the hell is wrong I don't know. It's annoying. 

The battle between wakefulness and asleep eh? 

Sunday, November 22, 2015

it is beautiful. everything about it is beautiful. 
it is never tainted.
never broken, never left unattended.
never alone.
it is to be embraced either all or none.
it can't be halved. it can't be in half.
it has to be full. 
it has to be together.

and most importantly, 
it has to be you.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

I want to go singing at some decent karaoke place so bad. I have been longing to do that for ages. Heck, I have never done that before.

So, can I?

But the problem is, I'm afraid if someone can hear me singing. Is the room soundproof enough? What if it's not? What if people can hear me singing? What if this and that?

Untitled

Assurance. I was talking about it last night. I mean, who can give you those unless they really know you very well? 

It is a guarantee, a pledge, a promise.

I can't be happier than receiving such assurance.

Through thick and thin. Through the good and the bad. Through everything. 

Because after all, we are forever.

Monday, November 16, 2015

Zxcvbnm

Sportfishing At Sungai Sura: Things To Ponder Upon

The 'ethnic cleansing' of mangrove jacks has taken place over a year ago in a place where I always cast my lures at. I have seen the pictures of juveline jacks being landed and not released back to the water. At first, I was amazed, kind of in awe of how these young fellow casters managed to successfully lured quite a number of jacks there. That was an achievement indeed - total respect to their lurecasting skills, techniques and whatnot. But later, many many weeks later after reading some hefty amount of articles and materials regarding local species conservation and C & R method, I started to wonder what they were doing those days were just bloody wrong. And I felt bad for not realizing it sooner. For conservation's sake, the jacks were juveniles. Why were they acting selfishly? What were they thinking? Were they driven by greed? Fellow C & R warriors would cringe in disgust if they see what was happening there; which I believe has happened for quite some time - a duration significant enough to alter the population of mangrove jacks there. And now, as a result, all of us casters including them are having a hard time of getting one. Quite recently, this act has spread to tilapia hunters, which I see it as another chapter of this sad, selfish, greedy, inconsiderate and totally irresponsible act of 'ethnic cleansing' along the river banks of Sungai Sura. This would not happen if they are educated about providing a better game fishing and aware of species conservation by practising C & R method; hence giving all anglers a more pleasurable experience not only for the current generation, but for the future ones too.

Hmmpphh

Pastu aku teringat kat kawan baik aku time sekolah menengah. Rapat sangat sampai orang cakap aku ngan dia ni macam belangkas. Kat mana dia ada, kat situ la aku ada. Dia ni memang hensem la, semua budak perempuan nak dekat ngan dia. Semua budak perempuan nak tegur dan borak ngan dia. Memang total opposite of me la dia ni. Dia ni epitome of perfect student. Hensem, cerdik, menjadi kesayangan cikgu dan semua orang. Memang power habis. Budak lelaki paling hot adalah dia. Tapi aku tak pernah jeles sebab masa tu aku belum kenal apa itu cemburu. Hahha. Aku follow the flow je. Lagi pun time tu aku pendiam dan pemalu teruk. Budak junior hantar surat cinta aku buat derk je. Kakak senior nak ambik aku jadi adik angkat pun aku tak layan. Time tu memang aku takde perasaan sangat dan ego aku setinggi Bukit Bauk time tu. Aku rasa time tu aku ego sebab aku ni anak sulung, apa benda aku nak kena jadi adik angkat orang? No way. Haha. Tapi kawan aku tu dia pun anak sulung and rilek je jadi adik angkat someone. Ah, aku memang tak cool time tu. Orang nak tegur aku pun cuak agaknya. Dan berbalik kepada cerita kawan aku tadi, aku pernah tidur rumah dia beberapa kali. Paling lama seminggu

Hmphhh

13 tahun lepas, tahun 2002, out of curiosity aku beli satu kaset yang cover dia agak simple tapi moden, futuristik dan cun. Aku beli kat kedai Cina The Gate dan kedai tu dah tak wujud pun. Tajuk album tu How's The Level dari Teh Tarik Crew. Time tu la aku start kenal dan berjinak-jinak dengan alam muzik hip-hop dan rap. Guess who were in the group? Mizz Nina dan Altimet, dan lagi dua orang DJ Fuzz dan Fiquetional. Aku puji melambung vokal Mizz Nina dalam album tu, siap banding dengan Missy Elliott time tu. Dalam album tu jugak TTC collaborate dengan Joe dan Malique disamping beberapa orang lagi rappers tempatan. Selain TTC, of course la aku ada beli jugak album Too Phat 360. Masa tu aku Form 2, memang zaman lagu rap/hip hop dan aku bersama kawan-kawan sedikit-sebanyak terpengaruh. Dressup time keluar merendek ke rumah kawan - baju t-shirt besar, seluar kargo lipat belah kanan, kasut sneakers putih (kasut sekolah je sebenarnya) dan cap, lepas tu kayuh basikal. Wannabe habis la masa tu, bajet B-Boy tapi breakdance satu haram pun tak reti. Kawan aku lagi power, pergi sekolah pakai Nike Air Jordan. Seluar londeh tahap dewa sampai baju sekolah terkeluar. Time tu ada la dalam 5 orang budak yang sekepala hip hop kat sekolah. Memang bajet habis time tu. Lepas tu selain album local, album international macam Eminem ada la jugak 3 buah aku beli, pastu Missy Elliott. Pastu ada sebuah album kompilasi Hip Hop Hard kawan aku bagi free sebab dia dapat free beli CD. Bila pergi rumah kawan je memang akan pasang lagu-lagu hip hop time tu. Ambil mood orang kata sebelum meronda pekan dengan mood hip-hop. Back then, the scene was a thing for us, even most of it only materialized in our minds and hearts. Dan malam ni, selain sebagai catatan tribute kepada kemenangan Joe Flizzow dan SonaOne malam tadi, aku tulis benda ni sebab nak mengenang kembali zaman 2002-2003. Zaman tu memang antara zaman paling aku rindu. Zaman eksplorasi muzik dan minat yang pelbagai, dan yang paling penting zaman membina persahabatan yang berkekalan. Honestly I'm glad scene rap/hip hop kita dihargai di peringkat tinggi dalam negara. They were a thing back then, they still are now. They are proving it despite their ups and downs. Kita tak ramai, tapi kita bersaudara dalam minat dan dunia yang sama. Semoga terus kekal maju.

Second victim of malfunctioned Evernote

Do you still remember the days when we used to walk in the evening drizzle, sharing umbrella together to our small neighbourhood's groceries store we called as Kedai Pok Cik Din? It was the days when Ramadhan coincided with the gloomy monsoon season of Trengganu. There, we used to treat ourselves with a hefty concoction of snacks, such as various variety of Apollo layer cakes and waffles, and also our favourite coffees in tall and slender aluminium cans. It would take about 25 minutes of walking to and fro. 

Evernote rosak jadi nak paste kat sini

Rohu tongsan jelawat ara leekoh

Kelabau jengkua terbul krai tenggalan temperas

Haruan bodoh/ketutu/ubi/ikan hantu

Ebek sagai rambai cermin cupak jemuduk gerong belang gerepoh/GT

Paktipok/pecah periuk/kakap batu/ikan sampah/tripletail

Lais belida tapah

Baung baung askar baung pisang kenerak

Belanak/loban/tamok/kedera

Sebarau kelah tengas

Duri belukang mayong ploktan jahan

Patong kepar tembakang puyu betuk

Closer

I feel closer to her in every way imaginable and unimaginable.

Never in my life I felt this way before.

This is going to last forever.

Let's make it last forever, sweetheart. 

Wednesday, November 11, 2015