Saturday, May 30, 2015

entanglement

one day, you're going to hate me. maybe even more than that. because time will shape things very slowly and evenly and then you're going to realize that everything is not going to be smooth sailing as you expected them to be. and you will hate yourself too because of letting yourself being entangled in this kind of mess. i will be there, staring blankly as usual at the earliest dawn breaking at the horizon, and i wonder where you're going to be at that time. perhaps you're going to be a mangled creature lying lifelessly on the edge of sanity, regretting the whole misadventure you've undertaken with your whole heart all this while. i will be giving my hands for help but of course they are of no use because they are not what you want anymore. you might even come to a point where i am going to be a despicable heartless person you've ever met in your life. 

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and then i heard a soft whisper, gently caressing me in its own beautiful way.

    "i'm here. for ever."









In the end, everyone wants to be happy.
 

Sunday, May 24, 2015

I Prefer Not To Be Engulfed In That Kind Of Mood Because I Am Just Not Good At It

Three or four years ago, I was the first one to say 'I miss you' when I missed that someone. But now things have changed - a whole lot. Whenever I miss that someone, I just go to YouTube or my iTunes and then listen and sing along to some few good songs, just to vent that missing feeling, and just to get a grasp of what I am supposed or not supposed to feel. I know I am not allowed to have that kind of feeling anymore because of some hocus pocus principles I made up a few moons ago. I don't want to get stuck into something bigger later on because you know, I am not the kind of guy who is good at those stuffs. 

I prefer cats, and nature. Even though cats hate me and nature is going to drown me the moment I take my first step towards it.

Cats are love. Cats are life. So does nature.


p/s: Hey, I lost 2 kg.
p/s/s: No, I'm not happy with my body.
p/s/s/s: I'm hungry. I want a large hawaiian pizza.



Saturday, May 23, 2015

kadang-kadang, bila kau dah terlalu rosak, kau tak perlu bereaksi lebih-lebih sangat. cukup sekadar senyum pahit, ambil headphones dan layan lagu yang kau mahu sepuas-puasnya. kau mungkin mahu mencari tuhan di pengakhirannya.

been addicted to this song now. my current favourite.

Pandai Besi - Laki-Laki Pemalu

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Cita-Cita

Bukan cita-cita saya lagi.

Cita-cita saya hanyalah ingin hidup di dalam hutan gunung-ganang, di tepi laut, di lembah hijau, di sebalik flora dan fauna yang saling bergantungan antara satu sama lain di dalam ruang udara segar tanpa dipengaruhi perasaan tamak, cemburu dan dengki manusia.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015



Rebab.

Aku terpesona dengan alunan bunyi yang keluar dari alat muzik tradisional itu. Aku mula terfikir untuk memiliki sebuah rebab. Entah dari mana akan aku dapatkannya tidaklah aku ketahui. Mungkin di kedai alatan muzik di Kelantan. Mungkin di rumah seorang tua yang masih lagi gigih menghasilkan rebab untuk generasi turun-temurun. Bagi aku, bunyi yang terhasil dari gesekan tali rebab itu adalah sangat indah, disulami cerita hikayat Melayu-Hindu, berunsur misteri dan mempunyai elemen magis purbakala. Apatah lagi kalau diiringi dengan cerita rakyat yang didendangkan oleh seorang Tok Selampit.

Kemudian aku terfikir alangkah indahnya jikalau ada pengarah filem yang ingin menaikkan kembali martabat muzik tradisional dengan menerbitkan sebuah filem yang elemen utamanya berkisar mengenai muzik tersebut dan segala macam budaya Melayu yang wujud di sekelilingnya. Dan Dain Said (pengarah Bunohan) adalah pengarah yang sewajarnya diberi tugas sedemikian.


Sunday, May 17, 2015

Aku tertarik dengan perempuan yang lagi berusia dari aku. Mereka lebih matang, tidak pentingkan diri sendiri, selalu berfikiran terbuka dan mengambil kira faktor sekeliling sebelum bertindak dan macam-macam lagi. Mereka juga tidak terpengaruh sangat dengan trend semasa yang unnecessary. Mereka juga tidak overly-attached dan romantik yang memualkan. Everything reminds me of my ex.

A New Affair


So I have bought this electric bass last Sunday. I have been wanting a bass for so long (and an electric guitar too), and I think now is the right time to acquire one. So here it is, a Yamaha BB425. It is an entry level bass, but this is more than enough for me. Gonna explore it soon. Except I don't have an amp yet. I am aiming to get a Hartke HD25.

My inspirations are Steve Harris, Colin Greenwood, Billy Sheehan, Victor Wooten and Marta Altesa - just to name a few.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

7 bulan tak memancing.
7 bulan tak berkayuh.

*senyum sambil menangis*