Friday, December 27, 2013

For one moment, I feel nothing. Nothing at all. Except I have delivered that robotic kind of gesture when someone was saying something to you, and you didn't have any fucking idea on how to react. Those words thrown to you were probably not something bad, but you just couldn't be human enough to reply it with your sense of humanity. You just became something, uhh..inhuman. Something lacking of common sense, deprived of feelings and instincts. Something so artificial. Fucking artificial and straight from the textbook gesture kind of thing. If you know what I mean. It's like this; I was kind and sweet and flirtatious in nature and then you just threw your usual nice supportive words which I perceived and believed it to the core of myself, to be a "You just fucking go away and don't ever fucking disturb me. I don't want to talk to you." kind of thing.

I might be wrong though. So fucking wrong perhaps. I just don't know.

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Kadangkala jelas terasa sunyinya. Sampaikan aku boleh jatuh suka pada sekeping gambar - gambar manusia yang tidak wujud.

Sejauh manalah hati dapat lari dari hakikat insani. Selama manalah diri dapat bersembunyi dari realiti sebuah kehidupan.

Normal itu indah. Abnormal itu satu absurdity, yang bagi sesetengah orang sangatlah jelik.

Entahlah, aku cuba untuk menafsir abnormaliti itu mengikut acuan aku sendiri.

Selagi mana dapat lari, larilah dan jangan berhenti. Selagi mana dapat bersembunyi, lakukanlah dengan berani.


So much for everything.